denial

how do you
begin

to tell
someone
anyone
everyone

that
they are
dying

but the tragedy
is that
they
don't have to

at least
not yet

and
not the way
you see
coming

but

it isn't just them
that's
in danger

it's everyone
and everything
all together

and
in particular

how do you
tell yourself
that
you share
the blame

and
the same
fate

waiting

called
back
into
the
principal's office

a room
with a
table
but
no
clock

to
tick
off
the

seconds
minutes
hours
days

how much
longer
do i get
to

wait
wonder
dream
sleep
eat
fuck

there
is only
the
pain
sickness
fear

to tell
me

not as long
as
i
would
like