no haven

a ceiling
painted sky
blue
complete
with white
and gray
clouds

bells ring
without
bell
or
clapper
as if tolling
some departed
soul

cheap electronic
noise
surrounds in
cloying
smothering
falseness

the carpet
clean
the toilets
clean
and
the drinks
shit

people
with blank eyes
fix
their numb gaze
to the glittering
lies
and tap tap tap

until

the machines
grow cold
and
impervious
to desperate
caresses

"hey! want to buy this?
it was a thousand bucks
but you can have it for
only a hundred..."

i turned
and left her to
gnaw off

a

limb

that

wasn't

even

in

the

trap

summer twilight

sun slides down beyond
gold
and red
crawling
across fading
azure
deepening to
violet

sweat
makes faded cotton
sheets cling
to
my hairless limbs

drawn curtains
filled with
brown
and
yellow
flowers
illuminated in full
bloom

boredom fueled
anxiety
inflames my
eyes
my mind spilling
over
the oil of resentment

in the gloaming
a woman's scream
faded and
echoing
from distance
wraps
around

tall
spider armed
silhouettes

the howl
of
longing
despair
agony
calls
to my
timid soul
cowering in loathsome
flesh
hiding
from the
rage
and mercurial affections
of god

haunting
the silence in my
dimmed hearing
and i see
through the cataracts
of time
a place where
fear was easily
seen
and heard
leaving behind the
longing for those
beautiful
wails

in deepening blackness
all fades
leaving the bitter taste of ash
as my limbs
grow
numb
and my sight
fades

true nature

she moved
like
a 40 year-old whore
trapped
in a 20 year-old
ingenue

a laugh
straight out
of
moscow

purrs
straight from
a dream

hiding
a
nightmare

who else
could
move
whisper
moan
grind

in

smooth

beguiling

charm

easing the prey's
caution
diffusing the prey's
fear

until

the
emptied husk
is left

swaying in the breeze

wondering
why
it didn't see this
coming